Alexandre Santamaria arrived at the orphanage convinced that he would sign a check, smile for the cameras and leave before lunch.
The humble building smelled of cheap disinfectant, warm juice and old sadness, that sadness that usually hides behind freshly painted walls.
The children were lined up in the main room, singing with timid voices a song prepared to excite the donors present.
Fluorescent lights flickered over withered colored balloons, as photographers and journalists searched for the generous millionaire’s perfect angle.
Alexandre wore a flawless dark suit, Italian shoes, and a watch so expensive that he could pay for several months of the hostel.
He hadn’t gone out of tenderness, guilt, or true compassion, but out of a cold public relations strategy.
His team had prepared a short speech for him, a sizable bank transfer, and a discreet exit through the side door.
Everything was calculated so that no one would get too close, because Alexandre hated unexpected emotions since Mariana’s death.
Mariana had been his wife, his greatest love and the only person capable of seeing him without his businessman’s armor.
Eight years ago, she died in a traffic accident that also took, they said, her newborn daughter from her.
Alexandre has since turned pain into glass offices, expensive hotels, signed contracts and deeply disciplined silences.
Every morning he looked in the mirror and saw green eyes that seemed to belong to a definitely empty man.
That day, as I raised my pen to sign the check, a childish voice flashed across the room like lightning.
—Dad! —shouted a five-year-old girl, running between the tables before anyone could stop her.
Alexandre’s watch slid off his wrist, hit the ground and rolled to a stop near a children’s shoe.
It wasn’t a spectacular fall, but the dry sound was enough to freeze the air inside the dining room.
The children stopped singing, the director pressed her folder to her chest, and the photographers slowly lowered their cameras.
The girl came to Alexandre wearing a yellow dress, dirty sneakers and a braid almost undone by the race.
Two guards advanced instinctively, but she was already hugging the millionaire’s legs with desperate force.
Alexandre looked down, ready to push her away coldly, until he saw her green eyes rise towards him.
They were his same eyes, with the same pale ring around the iris and the same silent stubbornness in his gaze.
For several seconds she couldn’t breathe, because that girl looked like an impossible photograph rescued from a forgotten funeral.
The director tried to intervene, pale as if she had just recognized a fire that she herself had hidden.
—Mr. Santamaria, we are very sorry, Sofía does not understand some things well —he said with a voice that was too trembling.
The girl tightened her arms around him tighter and shook her head, furious at the lie.
—Yes I understand, you are my dad —he responded, looking at Alexandre as if he had waited years to say it.
The name Sofía fell on him like a stone inside his chest, because Mariana had chosen exactly that name.
Sofía was the name of the daughter who, according to the hospital, never survived after Mariana’s accident.
Alexandre slowly crouched down until he was at the girl’s height, forgetting the cameras, the check and his entourage.
—How do you know that? —he asked with a voice so low that even his bodyguards seemed to hold their breath.
Sofia reached into the pocket of her yellow dress and pulled out a worn fabric bracelet.