I convinced myself it was worth it
My daughter continued speaking.
“Molly is really pretty and kind. It smells so good! “
I kissed Ruby goodnight and went straight to the bathroom. I locked the door, and I cried silently.
I kissed Ruby goodnight
I wanted to scream, but I knew what he would do. He was going to play it cool, make me feel paranoid.
So I kissed him, smiled and acted like nothing had happened.
I was tired of it, but I decided to be smarter.
I needed the truth.
So I came up with a plan.
By morning, I knew exactly what I was going to do.
So I came up with a plan.
I told my boss I wasn’t feeling well. I took time off and told Dan that my shift had been canceled due to a plumbing problem at work. I even simulated a loudspeaker call to make it convincing.
“That’s great”, he said, kissing me on the cheek. “You can relax for once. “
I smiled. “Yes. Maybe I’ll do some shopping. “
“It’s great”
Later that morning, I watched my husband pack a small bag with snacks and juices.
“Where are you two going today? “, I asked.
“There is a new exhibition at the museum. I thought we could go see her. She begged me to go. “
“It looks nice. “
“It looks nice. “
As soon as the car drove away, I grabbed the tablet. We use it to see our location — it’s mostly for security.
The little blue dot started moving, but not towards the museum.
I stayed behind three cars. I kept telling myself I was crazy.
That I would find them at the museum. That it was all just a misunderstanding.
I stayed behind three cars.
But the point stopped at an unknown address — an old house. There was a wreath on the door and twinkling lights on the windows.
A plaque read: Molly H. — Therapist
I stood frozen. L
Glancing out the window, I saw them. Dan was sitting upright, Ruby was swinging her legs on a blue couch. And Molly was kneeling in front of Ruby, holding a stuffed reindeer and smiling warmly.
I stood frozen.
So that was it.
I opened the door, my hands trembling.
Dan looked up.
“Erica”, he said, getting up. “What are you doing? “
“What am I doing here? Who is she? Why does my daughter draw pictures of your “friend” as if she were part of our family? “
So that was it.
Ruby’s eyes widened. “Mom…”
Molly stood up slowly. “I think there’s a misunderstanding”, she said softly.
Dan didn’t intervene.
“I was going to tell you”, he said, his voice breaking. “I swear I was going to do it. “
“You took our daughter to therapy behind my back? “
He nodded. “Yes. And I know. But that’s not what you think. “
“I swear I do. “
“You lied”, I said. You told me you were taking him to the museum. “
“I know”, he said. It’s just that I didn’t know how else to explain it without making things worse. “
“Did you think lying to me, hiding and introducing our daughter to a therapist was the best option? “
“Worse?! “
“She started having nightmares”, he said. “After you started working weekends. “
It stopped me in my tracks.
“She woke up crying. She didn’t understand why Saturdays were different. She told me she thought you didn’t want to be near her anymore. “
I covered my mouth.
It stopped me in my tracks.
“I didn’t want her to think that”, he continued. I didn’t want her to grow up blaming you for doing what you had to do for us. So, I tried to fill the void. I made up little stories, I tried to make Saturdays special, but… it wasn’t enough. “
Molly added: “Your daughter was showing signs of anxiety. And it wasn’t just because he missed you — it was confusion. She thought she had done something wrong. “
“So, I tried to fill the void. “
“But why didn’t you tell me? We could have gone together. Talk about it with family. “
“Because you were exhausted every night. You weren’t laughing anymore. You barely ate. I didn’t want to be another problem you had to solve. “
“So you hid the truth from me. “
“You barely ate. “
“And I’m sorry. I didn’t think carefully. “
Ruby, feeling the tension, approached me. She wrapped her little arms around my legs.
“I didn’t want you to be sad, Mom”, she said.
I dropped to my knees and pulled her into my arms. “Oh, baby. I’m not sad because of you. I’m sad because I didn’t see how much pain you were in. “
“And I’m sorry. “