I didn’t realize I was crying until the phone screen became a blurred prism of light. I pressed the device to my chest and doubled over, not from the ache of the tumor, but from the realization that eight years of my life had been discarded in a fourteen-word text. I thought of the mortgage I had helped pay, the house I had cleaned, the children I had waited for. Don’t call me.
Mark didn’t rush to my side. He gave me the dignity of a few minutes, sensing the magnitude of the collapse. Then, I heard the creak of his bed. He didn’t sit on my mattress—a boundary respected—but pulled a chair to the side of my bed.
“What happened?” he asked quietly.
I couldn’t find my voice. I simply handed him the phone. I watched his face as he read it. His expression didn’t shift into pity, but I saw his jaw tighten until the bone was visible. He handed it back, his silence more powerful than any curse.
“Can you postpone?” he asked.
“Dr. Herrera said the growth rate is too high. I can’t wait.”
“Then you go in,” Mark said, his voice like iron. “You go in, you wake up, and you realize that the trash has finally taken itself out.”
At 7:45 AM, the orderly arrived with a gurney. I was sitting on the edge of the bed, my eyes raw, the bitterness in my mouth tasting like copper. I looked at Mark, who was also being prepared for a minor procedure. He looked so decent, so rooted.
A wild, jagged laugh escaped my throat. “You’re so decent,” I said, the irony stinging. “Not like him. If I survive this, Mark Grant, maybe we should just get married and call it a day.”
It was a bitter joke, a defense mechanism meant to elicit a polite smile or a “just focus on getting well.”
Mark stopped. He looked at me for a long, unblinking moment. He didn’t smile. He didn’t joke.
“Okay,” he said.
