I married a blind man because I thought he would never have to see the parts of me the world had spent years staring at. Then, on our wedding night, he touched my burn scars, called me beautiful, and confessed something that made me question every bit of safety I thought I had finally found.
The morning of my wedding, my sister cried before I did.
Lorie stood behind me in the church dressing room with both hands over her mouth, staring at me in the mirror like she could still see the 13-year-old girl I used to be somewhere under the lace and careful makeup.
My dress was ivory with a high neckline and long sleeves, chosen as much for modesty as beauty, though Lorie had insisted on calling it gorgeous until I finally let the word sit in the room without arguing with it.
She could still see the 13-year-old girl I used to be somewhere under the lace and careful makeup.
“You look beautiful, Merry,” she said, tears sliding down her cheeks.
Beautiful. That word still catches in me sometimes. At 13, I had heard a very different word in a hospital bed while half my face burned and every breath felt borrowed.
An officer told me a neighbor must have mishandled the gas. That was what caused the explosion. He said that I was “lucky” to have survived.
Lucky meant waking up alive in a body I did not recognize. It meant children whispering at school and adults looking at me with soft pity that hurt more.
Our parents were gone by then. Our aunt raised us for a while, then she was gone too, and 18-year-old Lorie stepped into a life she never asked for and became everything for me at once. She was the one who ran beside the ambulance that day and sat with me through every quiet humiliation of healing.
My sister stood in front of me on my wedding day and asked, “Are you ready?”
